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Posted on the 10th of August 10th, 2012
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( oh playmate//come out and play with me//and bring your dollies three//climb up my apple tree//slide down my rainbow//into my cellar door//and we’ll be jolly friends//forever more )

073//Oh, it is love, from the first time I set my eyes upon yours. [
Posted on the 10th of December 10th, 2009
]
Warded to Neville
guess what today is!

and i have slytherins who want me to teach them how to bake.

072//'Cause she knows that it's demanding to defeat those evil machines, I know she can beat them. [
Posted on the 9th of December 9th, 2009
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Warded to Anthony
justin said that ernie killed the vampire who died when we were fighting her and i guess he's right though it feels like i killed her too because bits of her exploded onto me and it was later when i was at st mungo's that i thought about how nev told me that i looked like i had been to hell and back and lucy had gotten a sponge and i asked to see a mirror and i saw that i had blood and stuff all over me. just like how the death eater who killed my father made him explode all over the parlour and there were bits of him everywhere and his heart was in front of the fireplace and his head was his head was   it was there and don't worry i'm not going to cry on the parchment. i have a hankie. anyway. i'm achy and the potions are making me sick to my stomach and sleepy, but what makes me feel like i can't get out of bed is thinking of my father and how he died and then thinking of my mum and how she died. and i was remembering how nev and i came to visit you when you got hurt and what you said and i don't know, i guess i wonder if something is making you wonder a lot about your mum and if you're like me and wishing really hard that they were were?

so i'm going to visit with nev and then i am going to come visit you and then i am going to hug you.

i just thought i would tell you now so that you weren't surprised. okay i'll be by in a bit.

071//Information travels faster in the modern age, modern age. [
Posted on the 8th of December 8th, 2009
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Warded to Hufflepuff
i've been sleeping all day, i'm sorry i haven't been around. these potions make me just want to sleep.

are we all okay?

070//They'd see all of it, all of me, all of it. [
Posted on the 7th of December 7th, 2009
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Warded to Hufflepuff DA, Neville, Hermione, Bianca
if something happens to me, i wrote a really long letter to lucy and it's hidden under my mattress and i have another letter there and it's full of instructions okay? ( continued. )

069//Full of grace, full of grace. [
Posted on the 6th of December 6th, 2009
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( warded private )

068// Both my parents taught me about good will, and I have done well by their names. [
Posted on the 5th of December 5th, 2009
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Warded to Hufflepuff and Neville
am i really really sheltered?

lucy and i were talking tonight because she had to tell me that santa's not real and about something and i guess it really kind of hit me that i'm really really, like naive but more than that because my parents wanted me to be this naive. lucy said that mum once said that i cried so much when i was little that they just figured i was really fragile and they were scared that the 'world was too much for me.' that's what mum said, lucy said. isn't that a funny thing to say? lucy thinks they figured if i stayed their little girl then they could take care of me and that's why they worked so hard to make sure that i didn't know a lot of things.

i'm not mad. they loved me so much, they wanted me to be safe and happy and i don't think they understood me but they loved me unconditionally and that's what matters. and i cried ten times as much as i do now back when i was little, so maybe they weren't wrong to think i was fragile but i think i'm really strong too. i'm nineteen now and i own my own business and i'm an assistant landlord and i take care of lucy and i think that there are some things i don't understand about the world? and there are some things that i don't want to understand? but there is the tiniest little good thing about me having to grow up really quick without mummy or dad and that's realising that i'm stronger than they thought i could be.

i'm still learning though. and i think you can be strong and still like cuddles and fairycakes and not rushing th and things like that, i really really think so!

067//I locked in myself and buried it too long, now that I've come to fall. [
Posted on the 2nd of December 2nd, 2009
]
Warded to Neville
can i tell you something that's a secret? i'm telling you because it's almost all because you're my boyfriend but a little bit because you're you know, a da leader and all. but it's something i don't think i can tell even ernie or justin and i know i can trust you with everything.

066//Last night I dreamt you were with me, finally I could breathe. [
Posted on the 1st of December 1st, 2009
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Warded Private
i didn't want to grow up without you.

is the rest of my life going to be like this? everything i do being weighted by how you aren't here to be with me? i know you can see it but it's not the same. you're not here to help me the way parents should even when you're almost grown. you're not here to hold my hand.

if i marry nev, i'll walk down the aisle alone.

i'm nineteen today and it's because of you that i'm here and now you aren't here. i love you, every day and every breath and every day.

come back

065//Because I got high. [
Posted on the 30th of November 30th, 2009
]
Warded to the MWP minus Slytherin
what's a spliff?

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